What I hate and what I can't be

When I was new in second life I used to wonder things to make my sl better. I first thought that having a handful of good humane relationships and playing bloodlines would make me happy.But sadly that is not the case.For those people who have known me, they I presume can vouch that I am not the type of person who will simply lay back and follow others. I don't want always to lead, but the main criteria of me being in sl was to be either as famous as Anshe Chung or Wagner James Au or Mars Bracken or Jon Jacobs or Strawberry Singh.

So how does one start being like them ? I am not an earner in real, getting facts straight a new engineer on the job doesn't get paid much , leave aside the exchange rates of the countries.So investment for me is not an options since I can't be a capitalist.I am not capable either like some guy who mortgaged his house to buy a club in sl and earned triple the amount of his investment from the club.Nor am I so patient to be hit a club and work there. I have always hated clubs in second life with a passion.The worst thing to put me off mood would be send me a random tp where there are more than 3 avatars in the region.Neither am I a talented scripter or builder. All I am is articulate at the most.
Well today I am going to share a few facts about me more than that is in my profile and be a bit narcisstic..
and yes even i am hating to just whine..but hey atleast it makes me feel good
1st fact -
I hate the people who don't act their age in second life. I mean that yes its their second life, but I hate it because I have been lied too many times in second life where I find out a 60 year old grandma behind the computer claiming to be in her early 30s in sl.

2nd fact -
I dislike the fact that we men are stuck with only a handful of clothing and fashion accessories just like in real.

3rd fact-
People copying fashion,I am extremely choosy when it comes to my hair and I have stood around at bloodlines for an hour or two and next day someone wears the same shape,hair and skin like me... Bingo ! I lost my visual uniqueness ..

4th fact-
I love exploring places and I am turning into a texture addict but ...when I see places that are primy and pain in the eyes... I at times log in my alt and write a huge notecard to the owners about what visual effects are making me bleed and what can they do to make the sim more beautiful.

5th-
People not disclosing their real life after claiming to be emotionally close to me.. uh no... not happening. If you want to be a friend, you ought to let me know about your real life after a few months. I can't spend my entire life waiting for and talking to an avatar..And the reason is this ...

So summing up 3 years of my second life , all I have been through is meeting a lot of weird, ungrateful, confused people.I shall confess though.. Inspite of meeting the people who have made me believe in the stupidity of humanity. I have met a lot of wonderful charming and inspiring people who have made me believe that a few mins of chat with a wise person is enough to drag you out of the mediocrity.
So what I am now is totally different than what I used to be.
Ok... yay feeling better after ranting..
If you read through it , thank you for reading I will be there the next time you want to rant and take some stress of your bosoms.

The Think Tank Is Out of Ammunition - pt.1

When exactly was the collective decision made in America to cease using you're and replace it with your?  Why has "you are" become "you r?"  Was the silent e downsized and outsourced?  Maybe the announcement was made while I was completing my online application for a fellowship to the George W. Bush School of Public Speaking. 

On another note, I think it is high time those of us in the west reduced our carbon footprint by wearing only natural fiber clothing, but not cotton, due to its past connection to the slave trade.  I suggest we wear hemp garments.  hemp is all natural, durable, and when the clothes finally do wear out, we can smoke them.  After all, we won't be getting high, just recycling!  Ah, but lighting all those bongs and joints will create smoke, which will contribute to global warming…what is a populous to do?

I wonder

So many people in second life,everyone has their own story to tell.Every story more dramatic than the other one.Being a hopeless romantic I have always sought to find a couple who has the perfect love story. 3 years of my life in the virtual world has taught me that relationships don't last. No, I am not talking about romantic relationship.I mean the other bonds which we form with people.I have been glad to have been blessed with a few heart touching people throughout my second life. But cursed too since I won't know what happened to them. Three such friends of my was praxthym tophat,jeffery83,nathan scaggs. They came,we talked, they conquered my heart through friendship and caring..
Praxthym he said to me he would return  next day and tell me about his projects he was gonna submit the next morning...
Jeffery83 said he is gonna go and try to talk to his real ex and then let me know what happened ..he gave me his real email,added me on skype. Sadly its been 3 years now, since I saw him going offline on skype with a smiley face since I had motivated him to take 1 last shot in fixing his relationship with his wife.
Nathan said he was going on a trip for 2 weeks
Whats common in between these three guys ? They never returned.
At times I do wonder, where are they, what are they upto ..are they even alive...
Guess I won't ever know no. But what I have learned from them is that you need years to make someone love you or even like you. Few weeks of just being a good human being is enough to be remembered eternally by some other person sitting on the other end of the planet missing you forever.
Motto of the experience : Be nice to everyone, Life is too short to hate someone.Everyone one of us has the power to put a smile on a stranger's face across the planet and change their lives. Thats the power of a single good human soul .

Grapes are sour...

No one who has spent around more than 3 months in Second life is unaware of the interesting bdsm world.I also have had my escapades where I have tried to get a few people from those world into the world of bloodlines.
Again pointing to the fact that 99% of bloodlines players are aware what happens at bloodlines east and what it is famous for. ( For those who are not into bloodlines, its the place where you get all the latest gossips of bloodlines as well the most diversified culture, probably more than an international culture congregation.
So as I was saying, I tried to hunt someone submissive. Her profile stated that she is arrogant,vain and likes to be humiliated.I was like wow, thats gonna be quite a good challenge.
So I scan her and find out the she has left bloodlines in order to be a full time sub.That was quite awkward for me. I mean bloodlines is the only game in sl which can modify and adjust into nearly all the existing role plays. ( I hope they bring out other characters huds like witches,elves,ogres too ).But coming back to the topic that woman said to me that bloodlines was nothing more than a pyramid scheme... I retorted and asked her that so how come being chained and humiliated is better than to meet new people and use your personality to climb the top of a game ranking ?
I am not judging her, everyone has their own lifestyle. Some people choose to be elves and role play for years without even getting ranked or acknowledged for their dedication. And I personally don't think there is anything better while you sit on the thrown and some minion offers you their blood out of respect. ( No, I don't have Hematolagnia or Necrophilia )

The girl I met was partially clothed, kneeling down with heavy chains tied to her ankles and whip marks all over her chest..Now compare that girl with this girl. She is a vampire princess.

So with whom would you like to role play ? A weak ,vain , arrogant woman who claims to be the one to be able to fulfil your deepest fantasies ? or an elegant , powerful,charming,seductive woman who will might you rise to the level of king one day ?

I would say , the girl whom I talked to was the epitome example of how vain,misguided,judgemental a person can be.Remember even if the grapes are sour.. you will still get enough vitamin C from it *chuckles*

Pregnancy Peeves

I today came across a pregnant woman in second life. Not that its my first time but still it striked me .Raising a child is really one of the biggest responsibilities a person can take on themselves. So why get pregnant in Second life

 Honest Answer : I don't know. My logical answer : Practice/ fun/ realism.

I shall boldly accept inworld  and here too that I hate when the scripts or hud whatever that is..gives a message about how the baby is feeling. I have only tried to "click" on 1 baby and believe me I did not like it. Excuse me for my bluntness but yes its still an NPC - Non Player Character.. IF I was to show my emotions for a randomly created baby which does not even have AI .. I would  rather choose to fall in love with the gorgeous women of Prince of Persia games or Lara Croft or my character's gf in sims.

But there is another side to this family formations in second life.There are a lot of adoption agencies in Second life. You may call me double standard if someone wants to call someone mom or dad I guess its fine.After all you are not bumping your head to a robot or click a prim to say "Hello my dear son, How are you today ? Need some money ?" And then pay you 1000L$.. If it was that..I would get atleast 5 dads in Second life.

Coming back to the topic I have met quite a few people who were quite unfortunate to not have a family or imperfect family in real life.They can really take good advantage of the adoption centers in second life.And give you the peace of having a somewhat distant family if not real.

I have been asked quite a few times if I want to have a son or daughter.. And my answer always has been.. Do me a favor.. find yourself a rich hot submissive mother..then you will have me as your dad.

So whats my verdict ?

I may be am too young (puppy eyes ) to understand the concept of getting pregnant virtually. Anyways I don't like virtual pregnancy.  Some people don't like homosexuals.. correct them first then me :)

Skeletons in the Closet

Today there was not much rush at bloodlines. So I decided to go to profiles of all the people who I don't get along with (yes I am not a saint and I am trying to be a better person , even jesus had enemies.. )

I noticed that all of their profiles had a string of words which are totally different from the type of person they are.I know I know.. I am judging them I am sure they are good persons, probably better than I am.. But coming about this from the type of relationships I had with them.

All of their profiles had the following things said about them :

No Drama/ Drama free

If you wanna know something just ask..

and many more..

Well after that I have figured out something... 

These are from solely my point of view.. Copyrights owned ! 

I don't do drama - I love it !!!! Bring it to me !! Else I will start it ...

If you wanna know something just ask - No I am not interested in you ..

Taken - But not partnered ? OMG wtf ...can't spend 25 L$ to officiate your relationship or you know it deep down that its not gonna work... ?

There is a real person....avatar - No..not really..you are just another person who wants to play mind games and expect people to be calm. You are so attention seeking you don't care about anyone else's emotion.

If you can't handle me at my worst... - I can handle anyone at their worst but you are not marilyn monroe..get over it ! 

If you mess with my close people I will hunt you down - Sure..want me to pay the bill for your travel to my country ? 

Last but not the least -

I am tired of stalkers - It means you have lingering emotional resentment about your past relationships. Unless you throw it away there is no chance you can move into a new relationship.

SL is SL, Real is Real - No Never. As Mr Trip Tremmor Says : RL > SL . You are not in the matrix or in the Cyberspace.Second life is all about projecting your real life into it. When you go to a party don't you dress up a bit more ? Don't you behave a bit differently ? It also makes me feel that you are quite unlikely to know the idiosyncrasy I use as a person.Therefore it will end up quite badly because textual communication tends to be quite negative without the touch of emotions.

 

 

Ever Changing Relations

 A long time ago I had read that nothing constant or permanent other than the ever changing time. There have been moments in my second life which have sucker punched me and proven it again and again.

I have seen people change in just a matter of hours. I am not a psychologist but I have a hopeless theory that any person you meet  now matter what they did to you or want to do to you is a good person at heart. All it just needs is a point of view to prove to the person that you mean no harm.

Everyone in second life has been cheated on and hurt atleast once.

Being an ardent believer of conspiracy theories I am quite confident about the changes that we might face post 21 dec 2012 as predicted by nostradomus, iching, merlin and of course the mayans and the planet nibiru theory floating around I decided that there is no harm in trying to leave a good impression.

And to my good luck I have changed what a few people in second life think about me,in a good way at least as far as I would like to believe.

I at this point of my second life am happy to state that I am not angry or hold any grudges against any person I have ever met in the last 2 years. When I said this to a very close friend of mine , he said "how can you forgive your ex gf ? You were together for 3 years, you both wanted to meet this december and hopefully get engaged. Your parents even knew about it. And she just dumped you because she thought it would be better to have a real life 40 year old single father as a bf than a 25 year old boy who would fight against anything to be with her. You had even trusted her with all your passwords then how could she dump you. You had even changed your lifestyle for her. Waking up at 2 pm in the after noon and sleeping at 5 am in the morning after you would see her going to sleep on skype for last 1 year"

I smiled at him. He is my friend so he only sees my point of view.Its true I loved her more than anything even though all we did was just chat on skype. But what I did not say to him was that I was turning into a bully. I never knew I was dominative. Its not that I abused her but apart from her real friends I did not want to spend time with anyone else other than her when she was online.Not that she ever complained about it but now I feel that may be it was my fault.I guess I was just too selfish.I would ask her to dress the way I wanted my perfect dream girl would and vice versa.It was only about me and her in second life. Nothing else mattered. All our life for 2 years was around 1 cute skybox and discussing each others real life problems and asking each other point of view for the solution.

We are still friends and from what she told me was that We were having lots of arguements for past few months. But in all honesty I had never felt that she would leave me ever. We used to argue and when things got worse we would delete each other from friends list but reconcile within a day or two. It was just understood that either one of us would be apologising.. there was no question or fear that 1 is going to leave the other. Until one day she said she was ending it and for next week 1 thought it was just her pre menstrual cycle and everything would be perfectly fine.. I would login 1 day and she would say it was just a harsh joke :) .. until I saw her facebook relationship status update with the guy who had said he liked her around 8 months ago.

So coming back to my current blog. It was my fault. It was my fault that I had may be too much trust that she won't leave me.It was my fault that I never thought I would be having anything to do in second life without her around.

But things change, people don't change with time. Its just we get to know them better and they are revealed to us and that's exactly how relationships change based on a person's emotions when they can't relate to each other anymore.

That why I strongly feel that every person is capable of loving and caring for you. Being in a relationship is the easiest thing to do. But having faith that the person won't ever leave you even if you hurt the person and will still come back to you saying " Its all good" is the thing I would like to see in a relationship. 

If you really want a golden relationship be not afraid of testing it. Anyone will be good to you when you are being good to them. But the person who truly loves you will be good to you even if you upset them.Relations change people don't , they are just revealed with the passage of time.