Are you a Bigot ?

Oh, it's Christmas !! Look at all the happiness around...Jingle Bells...blah blah.
Everyone is Second life acting happy..But something was missing.Oh yes ...the essence of giving.I asked around to a lot of people if they got anything in second life for christmas..and around 90% of them answered No.I got a few gifts from my very close friends and I am thankful for that.But that's the thing..Wishing someone is not enough.Grow Up. Do something to make other people feel nice.Simply Wishing a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year in Second life with a few ASCII coded messages is just..so..old..just like being in a yahoo chat group.
I am not saying everyone should be gifting things but..Did you atleast gift things to the people you always hang out with on a daily basis in second life ?
And oh yes... Bloodlines Kings and Queens..You want to be treated as a queen apart from the bloodlines stats ? Gift your Royal Council members gifts..and shower your clan members of the lower ranks with gifts too...If you can't ..why even expect to be called and treated like a Royal ?
Ok...apart from my speech about why gifting is a good idea..Spread Peace please.
Even though I am a fan of the Devil and Darkness..This time of the year is such a time where you can make someone really smile or atleast contribute to the good times around you...Stop Drama and Prevent it.
Just take a vow that for next 2 days until the 2nd of January 2014, You won't hurt something with your speech or actions no matter what.
And even though most people will say eww to me for having a preference for the devil ..Hey...I did not hurt anyone or start a drama.And if you consider yourself a good person, like the followers of God and stuff and still hurt someone in any case atleast in SL...you are a Bigot ! 

OMFG ..Overconfidence much

Hey peeps, today I am going to show you what overconfidence exactly means. I have always heard of people who are over confident but till date had never met any.. but finally by heaven's grace I had the chance to view the works of one such person.
I have been trying to find a job in second life since.. umm... I don't have a job ..other than doing photography once in while [also no one is asking if they can advertise on my blog  -.- ] .So today I got a notecard from a person who asked me if I would like model for them. I was like ' wooooot awesome !'. I was offered to be paid 300 lindens per hour. I was on literally on cloud 9 and simply went to visit their store.
The store..ahem..boasted to have a very high traffic..but it had only 1 condition. For being a model I would have to first 'buy' something from the store, take a picture..and then send it to the owner , so that she can judge my talent of being a model.. [sounds fishy].
After I rezzed... I swear by all the griefers existing in second life... I had to shut down my computer and watch tv so that I could take my mind off the store and its outfits..
At my lowest graphic settings... I appear to myself as this ..

Totally unedited , lowest graphic, anti alias disabled snapshot with default windlight and video texture memory 0.
Seems ok right ?
Well this picture does have lots of things to be fixed in it to make it  appear standard for second life picture. I mean the talent of photography,designing and creativity that exists in second life as we all know it.. raises the bar of creativity every passing day atleast if not by the hour.
So I got inquisitive and checked this woman's profile.She claims to be a graphic designer,web designer and real life photographer.. well judging by her claims and standards of the graphics she uses..I can simply say that I am the warren buffet since I invest in sl stock market..
You people must be wondering...that why am I trashing some lady of my age whom I do not ever have any intention of speaking with or working for.
I am trashing her because I am upset at the point that how can people so be so naive at the graphical advancement in second life ? The only credit I will give her from my heart is having the store inspite of no sales which I can guarantee and being a well behaved resource hog [ i coined the term to describe a person who is of no use to the virtual world ] and contributing a bit to the economy of linden and to America.
So if you would like to know why did I do this blog and got a great sense of false achievement by trashing some unknown woman ..here is a picture of some of the items I was asked to buy and model in for being 'considered' as the store's model ..

I wonder if I wear freebie stuff in front of her will she report me for copybotting ?

Why won't it last

Last night, me and a very dear friend of mine were simply talking about relationships in second life.I was telling him how tough has it been for me to sustain a relationship in second life.I was at one point thinking that may be there is some kind of fault in me..some serious fault,as you people might be well aware that I am not chuck norris of second life or the brad pitt. [ every other guy in sl looks much better than a real life movie star at any given time]. Beautiful women are so abundant in second life that some one who has caligynephobia would surely commit suicide after being around 1 hour in world. I have seen second life change first hand.Right from the high paid job of being a model to every other person looking like a model. Beautiful physical features are so rampant in second life that people are actually now understanding not to go for looks when it comes partnership.[although it helps ..]
But what I figured out was that based on relationships, people in second life can be divided into a few categories.

No I am in a perfectly good condition and not suicidal lmao

Nah lets not divide people more, we already have too many divisions based on caste,race,life style,fashion,money etc.
But I will tell you why do people rarely go steady when it comes to relationships.It is because it is easy to flee.Normal people do not run when there is a problem in their relationship.They fix it.All relationships on planet earth has its own ups and downs.Do we really leave our parents when we have an argument or a quarrel with them ..no we don't but in second life we 'mute' them.60 % of people in second life who look for a stable relationship are already in a real life relationship and unhappy or single in real like me. [i have never dated in real only in sl which became my real click here for that info].So what happens is that those unhappy meet each other and partner up.But they forget that if you can't enjoy what you have in real how can expect to enjoy a dream ?Its like saying I do not like my pillow cover, but I won't change the cover, rather I will simply dream about a better pillow.Fine, nothing wrong if it makes you happy, but a dream is always a dream.Sooner or later it will break.
So if you are single in second life, do not actively look for a partner. If you are normal, you will find a normal person [hopefully who will be honest and not hide their mental illness from you ].
When ever I see a profile specially that of a female in sl it has a cliche on it . 'If you can't handle me at my worst , you don't deserve me at my best ' - what are you ...goddess Aphrodite or something like that ?
And also I personally would suggest if you see someone's profile say real is real and sl is sl shit... it would be my personal advice to stay away from them.Because after all we are all humans and we do have feelings.At some point of time there is always an inquisitiveness to know about the person behind the pixel.. I mean seriously would it not not suck to hook up with someone from the same state you live in and then find out that you are actually in a relationship with your pastor's wife or your best friend's mother ?
Some of you might say that that's the best part of not sharing. But would it not suck if you partner someone and they leave the next week from sl leaving you all alone and get busy enjoying a first life and you won't ever know who they are ever..
Yes age does not matter in sl when it comes to relationships but also 20 year old girl won't be matured enough for a 50 year old man unless she is into submission. And more over don't you think if you are not disclosing your  real life upto a certain level as the relationship matures you are being dishonest to your own self ..after all if the feeling and the care is honest and mutual why limit it to graphics only ..

SoulStrip

As you people might have noticed, that I do not want to ever blog about fashion in second life. I would not like to tag me as a rebel but.. I like to tend do the opposite of what 90 percent of the people are doing.My mom is seriously ill and bed ridden for last 14 years.I don't even recognize the last time I hugged her or she recognized me as her son.But one thing of her what I always remember is that her saying to me is 'Make your own mark.The best are a handful and very small in number but that does not mean they are weak.Never follow the crowd.Learn from your own mistakes.Life is worth making mistakes and getting experiences from it.Never ever be sorry for a decision you made.It was a choice you made and be a man and admit it.Never hurt a woman emotionally or physically no matter what'.

Coming out of her motivational speech, I hereby am presenting a meme which has been started by another blogger named rose.I liked her blog because she blogs it for fun, not for what I stated previously in my article.

The point of doing this meme is to find and discover more about myself.Most bloggers like me are normal humans who just blurt out the truth when asked questions.So here I am doing kind of soul strip if you are interested.

1. What is the thing you fear most in the world above dying(that is if you fear death)?

My fear is to die like another normal person.I had this fear since childhood.I am not an attention whore but I do not want that when I die..people will say 'Oh,that guy...yeah..i sort of remember him'. I do not want to be another face in the crowd.

2. When’s the last time you sat down and contemplated where your life was going, and what did you concluded from that?

I do that every time I go to sleep.I always contemplate while falling asleep and praying to God to forgive me if I hurt anything knowingly or unknowingly.Last time I contemplated, I felt that I still have a lot of work to do for being a better human.

3. If you could give any one person in the world a wish, a wish you knew you could grant, what would it be, and why would you give it to them?

I would give my father his wish.I would cure my mother.My parents had a love marriage.And my father never left my mom or complained for a single day while taking care of her.I tried to ask him many times why don't you find another wife ? I would not mind it at all and I am sure mom would not mind it either because you need a partner in life.He would gently chuckle and say 'I love your mother,I have a promise to keep'.

And that is the only reason I love my father to death and I would fix things for him at any possible cost.

4. Cat, dog, rabbit, horse, chicken, dolphin? There are so many animals in the world, if you could be one, and had to think, act, be like one, with out human thoughts, emotions, perception of the world, which would you be, and why?

The animal I would choose to be is a dog.Because I always believe that dog is the epitome example of loving someone , specially God. GOD=DOG.If you hit your pet dog,do not feed it for days it might get a bit cranky on you and cry but it will forgive you the moment you open your arms to it for a cuddle.Similarly my belief is that God tests us during troubles and wants us to stay loyal to him like a dog to his master/mistress.There can be no other better example of epic love and loyalty other than dogs.Yes there are wide examples of cats tracking back their owner across cities or spirits of animals appearing in family pictures..but it was only a dog that waited for his master for 9 years at a train station in Shibuya, Tokyo. Once I commit my loyalty I never break it until and unless the person clearly tries to act as my enemy.

5. Today is the last day you’ll ever see your family. Some you may love, some you may hate, other you may not have any emotional attachment to. What would you do?

I would thank them heartily for being my family [even if i don't like them, there is nothing wrong in making someone feel good] and leave.

6. Given the chance to travel to one country -ONLY – in your whole life, other than the one you’ve grown up in, or have found yourself living in (pretend you’ve gone to no other country in the world other than the one you now call home) where would it be? Why, and for how long?

I don't think i would need to pretend to not have visited another country.India is so big that I haven't explored half of it yet.But yes I have only stood at the border of Nepal and India and peed in Nepal.I was 5 years old then.But yes, if I have to travel to another country , I would choose switzerland and stay there forever and ever.I do not know why, its just has been my dream to visit there.For last 10 years I even save a meagre amount of pocket money to visit there on my honeymoon.

7. Quick you have to pick 5 things to take with you as you are rushing out of the house- you don’t know what’s happening, where you’re going, who is taking you where, or why, but you do know you can carry about 5 things, in the small bag you’ve given to take with you. What do you choose?

I would take a pair of underwear,a pen,water bottle,my ID proof and my swiss knife.

8. You’re sitting in a dream, you can tell you’re dreaming, but you’re not awake enough to move. What do you see? Is anyone there? (be creative, make something up, or recall a dream you had before)

I have always had a dream,I am 26 years old now but this dream keeps on coming to me even when I am day dreaming or in deep sleep.I see a shadow lurking around and it wants to engulf me inside it.I am not safe in my own house [the houses change in every dreams]. And I decide to jump for a 50 storey building but I fall under the earth somewhere where there is an old woman spinning clothes,a small stream nearby and a big dead tree where corpses are hanging upside down and the woman approaches me with a smiling face and tries to hug me as if she has known me for ever. Every time I dream there is a 80-90 percent chance that its going to be the same dream.It has been like that for last 10 years.

9. What color do you think you are?

Olive. I do love other colors like red,black,blue, white but I can't be that color.

10.  If when it came to blogging, if you blog, no one say your blogs, no one commented, no one noticed, no one cared, at all, would you keep blogging? 

Not really,if no one cared I might stop blogging passionately and regularly.But mostly what I blog for is to vent my thoughts and feel good so I might blog but less frequently.

Fashion Crisis..

Yep,Fashion Crisis .. the one big thing I am foreseeing in the future of second life but only for males though.Well , actually may be I am afraid of the feminization that's been happening all over world specially second life.Hold on.. before you call me a chauvinist pig, let me explain why did I choose to whine about fashion crisis and feminism in second life.I do respect females and if you don't know me I don't care..but lets get straight to the facts.
The females have a choice of 532173 more items as compared to an average male in second life ..What the Chubble ..

I actually got whiny because I wanted to enter an established avatar photo contest in second life ..there was indeed a very tough competition, but what put me off was that I was supposed to give them a detailed note of all the items I would be wearing ...Why would I do that ..yes they hold prestigious events and are 100000 times more beneficial to the second life economy than a south west asian resource leech like me..but it does not mean I am going to to advertise whatever I have bought after exploring hundreds of shops for months.[yes for those of you don't know there are a lot of awesome hidden fabulous shops which are not on marketplace ]
Also I guess the fashion crisis that is happening for males in second life is due to the spam bloggers. Every 3rd blogger you see in second life is going to be a female who sits on her laptop , spamming notecards to poor designers claiming to 'review' their work. Yes designers do benefit from that..a lot but has it ever occurred to someone why do these self claimed fashionistas never ever approach a designer who still works hard to make his business thrive but does not have the capital to invest in a big sim or even rent a shop ?
Why not blog about an affiliate shop... oh probably they won't give you an outfit for 'review'.If the affiliate sells more, both the designer,affiliate,customers and linden lab will be happy !

Ok...coming back to fashion crisis...how many stores are there for males actually that are awesomely good ?
I went to the fashion event hollywood and barely a handful of designers cared to put a freebie for males too.I made sure to buy stuff from their main stores as a sign of appreciation. [Honestly 3 stores remain but I will buy from them as soon as I manage to earn a bit of lindens]
But the thing is why are we ..specially males when we try to submit pictures for photographs have to state the designers.Don't believe me ? Try to wear your best male outfit at a crowded  place for example bloodlines. If in next 48 hours atleast 3 people are not wearing it ... I will pay you back the entire amount of your outfit !
With such a huge fashion crisis in second life how can we males ever thrive ? ..BTW if you have ever visited bdsm in sl... 90% of the females there top you from bottom..so are we men basically facing fashion crisis because second life is being dominantly feminist or its just my stupid point of view ?

OMG ...

People are varied in second life just as in real. But today I am going to tell you a story of two people who have been claiming that they are being stalked in second life for last 8 months. I agree, stalkers are a pain in the ass. But what I want to say here is that I have met two women in sl one of them is wondering why she does not have any friends any more.
case 1 is of a woman who is seemingly stalking me. I am actually enjoying it in sl but it is getting irritating.
The nature of that woman used to be very very good when I had first met her.But something changed in between.She would not take my ims or even reply to me nicely.After 3 months of silence she ims me from another avatar saying she is sorry, hurt and needs a friend to talk. I said why not ! after all thats what friends are for..
Her : are you looking for a woman in sl
Me - nopes not yet
Her ; will you be my boyfriend
me - no i said to you i guess i am not interested in a relationship right now.
Her - i need a bf like you, i am emotionally dead i don't have any interest in sex or romance.i am ill in real.
me - ummm i need to go tp, i m sorry about your illness , you always will have me as a friend.

Special Thanks To Model : madison rolendis [not the weird 'her']

After 30 mins
Her - I am bored
me- me too , want a tp
[ and i tp her ]
her - you look very sexy and handsome
me- hehe, ty
her- i want to join your clan
me - umm sure why not
her- if i join your clan will you be my boyfriend
me - no dear i am not interested in commitment as of right now
her - fine , i will leave you alone and lonely
me - i am alone does not mean i am lonely.

Next day
her- i am leaving sl
me - aww ok. a piece of advice, sell your souls and get some money to recover what you have spent in sl.
her - you are mean and a jerk, you only want my souls.
me - 0.0
her - i am giving my souls to a real friend not some selfish person like you.

Next day
from a new avie -hi, its me , i created this avie and transferred all my souls to this
me - i knew it , doesn't surprise me
her - wanna meet me ? i got a new bed
me - I thought you said you are not interested in any romantic stuff
her - i said in real not in sl . i am always available to you in sl babe
me - o.0
her - i want to make a new clan
me - go ahead, you will need lots of land and active people to even think of starting it
her - i am a strong woman i can rule from a skybox if i want
me - sure why not if you have the confidence go for it .

After 40 mins of silence
her - I need your help
me - sure what can i do for you
her - i need a clan name
me - why not try this ... censored
her- awesome name
me- you are welcome

After 20 mins
her - i need help again
me - what can i help you with
her - i want you to help me think  group tags for my clan

coѕ αεdιpo (lazylover.aedipo): ooh lol honestly whats my profit in it ?
  her : nevrmind
 coѕ αεdιpo (lazylover.aedipo): exactly, i don't work for free for strangers
her : i am no stranger to u
her: Good Grief
her: all u think about is pussy
  coѕ αεdιpo (lazylover.aedipo): you are a sick coward woman who thinks all men want to fuck you , but you are nothing more than a dumb old hag
her: u don't know me
coѕ αεdιpo (lazylover.aedipo): i am not interested, i don't take blame from stupid self righteous women who want to use me in lieu of being a friend, you are the queen of the clan go figure out stuff for yourself
her: FUCK OFF THEN

What I hate and what I can't be

When I was new in second life I used to wonder things to make my sl better. I first thought that having a handful of good humane relationships and playing bloodlines would make me happy.But sadly that is not the case.For those people who have known me, they I presume can vouch that I am not the type of person who will simply lay back and follow others. I don't want always to lead, but the main criteria of me being in sl was to be either as famous as Anshe Chung or Wagner James Au or Mars Bracken or Jon Jacobs or Strawberry Singh.

So how does one start being like them ? I am not an earner in real, getting facts straight a new engineer on the job doesn't get paid much , leave aside the exchange rates of the countries.So investment for me is not an options since I can't be a capitalist.I am not capable either like some guy who mortgaged his house to buy a club in sl and earned triple the amount of his investment from the club.Nor am I so patient to be hit a club and work there. I have always hated clubs in second life with a passion.The worst thing to put me off mood would be send me a random tp where there are more than 3 avatars in the region.Neither am I a talented scripter or builder. All I am is articulate at the most.
Well today I am going to share a few facts about me more than that is in my profile and be a bit narcisstic..
and yes even i am hating to just whine..but hey atleast it makes me feel good
1st fact -
I hate the people who don't act their age in second life. I mean that yes its their second life, but I hate it because I have been lied too many times in second life where I find out a 60 year old grandma behind the computer claiming to be in her early 30s in sl.

2nd fact -
I dislike the fact that we men are stuck with only a handful of clothing and fashion accessories just like in real.

3rd fact-
People copying fashion,I am extremely choosy when it comes to my hair and I have stood around at bloodlines for an hour or two and next day someone wears the same shape,hair and skin like me... Bingo ! I lost my visual uniqueness ..

4th fact-
I love exploring places and I am turning into a texture addict but ...when I see places that are primy and pain in the eyes... I at times log in my alt and write a huge notecard to the owners about what visual effects are making me bleed and what can they do to make the sim more beautiful.

5th-
People not disclosing their real life after claiming to be emotionally close to me.. uh no... not happening. If you want to be a friend, you ought to let me know about your real life after a few months. I can't spend my entire life waiting for and talking to an avatar..And the reason is this ...

So summing up 3 years of my second life , all I have been through is meeting a lot of weird, ungrateful, confused people.I shall confess though.. Inspite of meeting the people who have made me believe in the stupidity of humanity. I have met a lot of wonderful charming and inspiring people who have made me believe that a few mins of chat with a wise person is enough to drag you out of the mediocrity.
So what I am now is totally different than what I used to be.
Ok... yay feeling better after ranting..
If you read through it , thank you for reading I will be there the next time you want to rant and take some stress of your bosoms.

The Think Tank Is Out of Ammunition - pt.1

When exactly was the collective decision made in America to cease using you're and replace it with your?  Why has "you are" become "you r?"  Was the silent e downsized and outsourced?  Maybe the announcement was made while I was completing my online application for a fellowship to the George W. Bush School of Public Speaking. 

On another note, I think it is high time those of us in the west reduced our carbon footprint by wearing only natural fiber clothing, but not cotton, due to its past connection to the slave trade.  I suggest we wear hemp garments.  hemp is all natural, durable, and when the clothes finally do wear out, we can smoke them.  After all, we won't be getting high, just recycling!  Ah, but lighting all those bongs and joints will create smoke, which will contribute to global warming…what is a populous to do?

I wonder

So many people in second life,everyone has their own story to tell.Every story more dramatic than the other one.Being a hopeless romantic I have always sought to find a couple who has the perfect love story. 3 years of my life in the virtual world has taught me that relationships don't last. No, I am not talking about romantic relationship.I mean the other bonds which we form with people.I have been glad to have been blessed with a few heart touching people throughout my second life. But cursed too since I won't know what happened to them. Three such friends of my was praxthym tophat,jeffery83,nathan scaggs. They came,we talked, they conquered my heart through friendship and caring..
Praxthym he said to me he would return  next day and tell me about his projects he was gonna submit the next morning...
Jeffery83 said he is gonna go and try to talk to his real ex and then let me know what happened ..he gave me his real email,added me on skype. Sadly its been 3 years now, since I saw him going offline on skype with a smiley face since I had motivated him to take 1 last shot in fixing his relationship with his wife.
Nathan said he was going on a trip for 2 weeks
Whats common in between these three guys ? They never returned.
At times I do wonder, where are they, what are they upto ..are they even alive...
Guess I won't ever know no. But what I have learned from them is that you need years to make someone love you or even like you. Few weeks of just being a good human being is enough to be remembered eternally by some other person sitting on the other end of the planet missing you forever.
Motto of the experience : Be nice to everyone, Life is too short to hate someone.Everyone one of us has the power to put a smile on a stranger's face across the planet and change their lives. Thats the power of a single good human soul .

Grapes are sour...

No one who has spent around more than 3 months in Second life is unaware of the interesting bdsm world.I also have had my escapades where I have tried to get a few people from those world into the world of bloodlines.
Again pointing to the fact that 99% of bloodlines players are aware what happens at bloodlines east and what it is famous for. ( For those who are not into bloodlines, its the place where you get all the latest gossips of bloodlines as well the most diversified culture, probably more than an international culture congregation.
So as I was saying, I tried to hunt someone submissive. Her profile stated that she is arrogant,vain and likes to be humiliated.I was like wow, thats gonna be quite a good challenge.
So I scan her and find out the she has left bloodlines in order to be a full time sub.That was quite awkward for me. I mean bloodlines is the only game in sl which can modify and adjust into nearly all the existing role plays. ( I hope they bring out other characters huds like witches,elves,ogres too ).But coming back to the topic that woman said to me that bloodlines was nothing more than a pyramid scheme... I retorted and asked her that so how come being chained and humiliated is better than to meet new people and use your personality to climb the top of a game ranking ?
I am not judging her, everyone has their own lifestyle. Some people choose to be elves and role play for years without even getting ranked or acknowledged for their dedication. And I personally don't think there is anything better while you sit on the thrown and some minion offers you their blood out of respect. ( No, I don't have Hematolagnia or Necrophilia )

The girl I met was partially clothed, kneeling down with heavy chains tied to her ankles and whip marks all over her chest..Now compare that girl with this girl. She is a vampire princess.

So with whom would you like to role play ? A weak ,vain , arrogant woman who claims to be the one to be able to fulfil your deepest fantasies ? or an elegant , powerful,charming,seductive woman who will might you rise to the level of king one day ?

I would say , the girl whom I talked to was the epitome example of how vain,misguided,judgemental a person can be.Remember even if the grapes are sour.. you will still get enough vitamin C from it *chuckles*